Pisces: A short monologue

He's the "World's Best Friend". What is he? Flows around, like water, taking the shape that he's in.

Unfair to say he's fake, coz you define him as the bottle he's being put in, knowing full well he'll change his shape later, when he's in another bottle.

He feels you, though perhaps he can feel your pain if it happens to him, as himself, not as you. But he feels you. Dare you ask more? Dare you ask him to feel your pain as yourself? Dare you ask him to put himself as yourself? You're asking too much. He feels you in the limited capacity and knowledge of of his experience, that's good enough. It isn't? Then, try talking to an Aries, life is all bout them, then you know.

He's the bard, the one who sings encouraging songs in a battle, so that people keep fighting for the cause. Aries could be in front of the line. Scorpio could be planning the whole thing. Leo could be charging forward with the team. Cancer could be arguing the point of the whole battle. Aquarius could be inventing new methods to help win the war.

He could very well see plus points in you that you didn't see yourself, coz he wanted to see what he wanted to see. He likes being popular, despite what he says. Just watch and see. It gives him strength to go on, to help spread his contributions. But it mustn't be that obvious.

He could try to be a walking wikipedia, sharing his knowledge whenever he could, because he wanted to. He's a vessel, remember? It's annoying? Live with it because he doesn't think he's showing off.

He reminds me to not take life too seriously, coz when he see things as outside his control, he's more laidback and accepting. And I could remind them to have a goal, coz I try to control everything as I get pissed off really bad when I fail in something. Who's right? C'mon, we're adults now and although in the end it's black and white, good or bad, right or wrong, it's the grey areas that defines the end. End justify means, Machiavelli would say. Maybe you don't agree. But we have different basic values that complement each other which makes me and him good friends. Go figure.

So, how do you handle him? Could it be the same as how do you control water from spilling over? Define that water, not the shape it's in. And be a strong shape for water to be filled in. Just don't try to make water solid, or solid to change itself to shape water.

Half a year, an old friend, travels

Writing this in my hotel room, in Kota Bharu. Excellent hotel the Renaissance, I must say. Better than the ones I had to stay in Kangar or Alor Star. Yea, lucky that I get to travel to the states and learn and see new things. And the food, oh glorious food!! Food is my passion, of course. If only I've an acceptable camera, I'd be doing my own food blog, more of the off-the-beaten path food. My own standards.

Kota Bharu is nice. My Chinese colleague was pleasantly surprised because all of his misconceptions about Kelantan aren't true. The girls are hot. The food is great. The mat rempits performing stunts on the road are crazily attention-seeking cool bastards. Had the usual Yati Ayam Percik, which is now franchised and has presence in KL. And also Nasi Kak Wok, whoever Kak Wok is but everyone is selling them. And now apparently the trend is on Sate Baung, but not using ikan baung. I've never driven in Kota Bharu before, and it's more happening than Alor Star or Kangar.

On the 2nd day here, I met an old friend from college which I haven't met for bout 12years. He's married with 2 kids. And yeah, he's been pestering me to get married. "Nanti umur ko dah 50 tahun, anak ko baru Darjah 1". U think? He thought I was doing ok now, coz we both didn't make it to the States. I didn't realise that, as I've been pushing myself against the best in my class.

Half a year has gone. What have I achieved? Studying to pass my certification exam, for one. Maybe I'm not too old to study further. Maybe I'm not too dumb to achieve more. Maybe I can still kick ass like I was back in school.

I'm going back to KL tomorrow. An eye opener trip indeed. Half the battle is won when you said you can. Corny, isn't it? It works, especially when you depend on luck playing bowling with Wan, for example.